When It Has Past

I have been reinstated. 

When the elders said they would sit down and speak with me, I didn't think it would happen. I was sure they would say I needed more time. I prayed to Jehovah over and over again to help me endure and keep my eye on the goal if He thought I needed more time. I was so worried that they would say: "We think you need more time."

Before I even went to the meeting, I asked Jehovah, that if there was anything I needed to work on, that would prevent me from being reinstated, to make it clear to me what it was so I might work on it. Nothing was made clear to me. Not in a big way, just some little things I need to work on, the way anyone does.

When they told me that I was clearly repentant and sorry for hurting Jehovah, that they were going to reinstate me and it would be announced on Thursday, (this coming Thursday) I didn't know how to react. I think I smiled and tried not to cry some more. Damn my girl eyeballs!

I still don't know how to react. I keep going back and forth between trying to go about my day and almost crying again. I feel anxious and limp from having a load removed from my heart. The elders told me to lie low until the announcement, that I would remain on restricted privileges for now, (no commenting or being on the school) but I was welcome out in the field service as soon as this coming Friday. I'll have to prepare a presentation and acquire a KM, been a while since I've had one of those.

I'm not going to tell anyone that I am reinstated until they announce it and is official. I worry about how some people will react to the news. I imagine it will separate those who truly love me from the ones who have some kind of hang up, if any react that way at all. I imagine ridiculous scenarios that will never come to pass, like I do about most things. Need to write more or something, my brain is starting to clutter with the nonsensical and dramatic. 

While meeting with the elders, I told them about the one time I wrecked a car when I was a teenager and how I haven't even had a fender bender since, that this disfellowshipping is my one car wreck in my life, (that I caused, anyhow) and that it was never going to happen again. 

I'm going to hold true to that.

The First Story

          What is a story? It is a telling of events, whether fictitious or true accounts. From the Bible to Grimm's Fairy Tales, from the newspaper to Facebook, storytelling has taken many forms.

Can we even document the number of tales the human race has invented or recounted over the millenniums? And as our knowledge of everything continues to grow, only more can come. 

Has anyone ever considered what stories would be told by the Angels? Or of the times before the Universe, when only Jesus and Jehovah were about? (Times, technically being incorrect, since the concept of time was created for us.) Or even before Jehovah decided to create anything at all?

What did Jehovah contemplate before his Son was there? Could we even fathom such a way of being?

What was Jesus' "Childhood" like? Did he play? Was the beginnings of creation his "Play"? Like a child learning from block letters, did Jehovah hand over to Jesus the raw materials of the Universe and slowly teach him how to build?

Like an only child yearning for brothers and sisters, did Jesus rejoice in the coming about of the angels, as a child does when such a wish is fulfilled?

What adventures did Jehovah, Jesus, and the angels have before we came into being? Did the angels help with the creative process of things in the cosmos? Did they help to shape and perfect our beautiful home world?

Have their adventures been put on hold during this time of duress? Or do they continue with the ones going on in their plane of existence? Would anything really need to be put on hold since their experience of time is probably nothing like our own? 

Since restrictions had to be put on the angels, due to Satan's influence, I think it is possible that routines established eons ago may have been disrupted in some ways.

Were the faithful sons of God angry at the ones who came down and took advantage of the women of Earth, thus banning the going back and forth between our world and theirs? Did they miss the association with man?

This may sound silly, but Jesus said we are one of the things he is most fond of. We were created to co-exist with the angels and they have been cut off from us. Though they are spirit beings, Jehovah said he made us in His image, and we have more in common with Angels than one might imagine.

And finally, even the greatest teaching tool from Jehovah himself is, in fact, a collection of stories for us to learn from.

I have little doubt that Jehovah, Jesus, and the Angels have many tales to tell. I look forward to hearing them.