I am so bad at this.

I really am. I want to be a writer but I allow my need for perfection to get in the way of writing even on a personal blog! What a goober. Bad TJ! Bad!

I am enrolled in a medical college...

I just want to take a moment with that, never thought I would say something like that. I feel like I could do anything now. I'll be working as a physical therapist technician but the areas of specialty 

I could get into are extensive and exciting!

My Uncle Jim has banged my poor little BMW back into shape and it's running again. Looking at it, you wouldn't be able to tell I killed Bambi with it last year.

I painted the hood a bright red even though the car is black. The fancies that strike us. Also found, not one but two mice nests in the car. Gotta love Oregon.

Grim has put me on her auto insurance so I can get a 21 day movers permit to get it down to Arizona. She is going to drive down there with me and bunk with a friend for a few weeks. She wants to feel out whether she can stay down there this Winter. We'll see.

When I get down there, I need to get Arizona plates and tags but I may stay on Grim's insurance for a while. $46 a month is hard to beat. Jim also said my engine is wearing out so my buddy and I may pull one from a yard and switch them out.

I've started doing Yoga and riding my bike regularly but have been super lazy with writing and research:/

I need to stop procrastinating through perfectionism, utter waste of time that is. I encourage others not to do that and then walk down hypocritic lane. Tsk, tsk.

I blow a kiss to the world: *smooch*
Until next time.

My car...one day.

I'm back! From outer space!

OK so it's not outer space but that would be pretty cool. A lot cooler than showing up in Oregon from Arizona.

  
You'd think showing up in Oregon from Arizona would be a cooler experience. Wrong! Humidity is making everything sticky. Bleh!

Coolest news of the moment: After nearly four agonizing years of keeping my poor, decrepit phone alive, because I refuse to pay $100 or even $50 for a smartphone, I have found the exact phone that I want for $20!

  
That's right. You know it's true, but I'm gonna say it anyway: I am amazing. Through patience and stubbornness of will; I win.

  
I am going to visit my cousin Jenny soon. Hopefully can get some advice from her on the best way to go about this whole college thing. She has been through ten years of it, she ought to know a thing or two.

  
Need to figure out what exactly I want to do for a career. Going to do some research.

  
Also need to get some ADHD meds. I get by on my vitamins but I have a feeling that they won't hold up under some serious academic focus.

Me?! Not able to hold up under serious academic pursuits on my own... or get through a text book...or watching this TV program...or focusing on this conversation we are having right now.......I'm hungry, want popsicle... mmmmm, popsicle....

Learning!!!

  I have been watching a lot of SciShow and CC (Crash Course). I love that there is a short, amusing way to learn...everything! I love the internet!

  The internet connection was acting a little funny the other day and you should have seen me flipping out. Turning it off and on again, (IT would be so proud;) ) taking the battery out, checking all the settings that I could think of. It was pathetic. 

  In the end it smoothed itself out and I continue to leach off of an open network from one of my neighbors as usual:)

  I ran out of CC US history, have to wait for them to make the next video, so I have moved onto World history. 

  Yay:) 
  
  The first video was mostly centered on the people who lived in the Indus Valley around 3000 bc. A lot of the info made me wonder who they were and why they left mysteriously and why they were so peaceful, which is suspect, sadly.

  Were the people of the Indus Valley the early Israelites? I mean before they became Israelites that is. It makes sense to me but can't be certain until the New System when we can just ask them personally.

Need to do some more research on them later.

  Last weekend I helped a friends mom move and have inherited a fish tank from the project. A full on, 30 gallon fish tank, including fish, rocks, decorations, fake plants, filter system, the works. I now have a giant night light with fish living in it.

I love you fishies...I want to live with you.

  I've always wanted a fish tank. Well, I've always wanted a fish tank that had fish in it. I've had numerous fish tanks in the past but they were usually occupied by bug or snakes or the like. 

  My mother found this habit of mine thrilling as you can imagine.

I Know It's Been Awhile...

  But I'm back.

  I am officially divorced now and have my maiden name restored. Need to go to the DMV, bank, etc. Yay, that'll be loads of fun.

  Still haven't bought a car, still riding the bus. I don't really mind riding the bus, you get to meet some very interesting people, nice people, even some really cool people.

  I've met an engineer from the Netherlands, an interpreter from Iraq and I hear dozens of different languages every week on the bus, different dialects from India, Africa, South America, the DR. I stand there and smile at them like an idiot and they try to ignore me or talk to me if I look like them.

  I am getting to the point where I wouldn't mind working less for more money, this job is good and I like the people but it is murder on my poor body. And I really wouldn't mind a job where I don't have to get up at 4:30 every morning during the week. Bluh!

  Still need to look into interpreting. Can't quite recall what that nice deaf lady at Kinko's said about that site, it was a four letter abbreviation of something to do with the local deaf set up. Need to get on that.

  I must be getting old or something. I am wanting things that are a lot more settled than I have ever been before. Things like a reliable car, maybe even a normal apartment that has a washer and dryer in it so getting laundry done doesn't have to depend on me having enough quarters to do a load.
  My god, it's finally happening. Everyone knows that I'm old, no doubt...but settled? Glegh!

  Just watched the season finale of Doctor Who:-D Saddest, most epic episode yet! 
  

  I miss River so much:( I love when he kisses her and says: "Seeing as how I am the only one who can see you, god only knows what that must have looked like." HA! True dat. I love how they were all looking around but didn't actually ask him what the heck he was doing. 

  They found a really cool actor to portray the Haunted Doctor, his face, voice, everything. I like that actor in everything I've seen him in, gonna be awesome:)

  Not sure if those faceless, toothy henchmen are as scary as the Weeping Angels or the Silence. They were very creepy, don't get me wrong but I'm not sure if there was enough build up or mystery surrounding them to make them really scary. I would even put the freaky, man eating snow men on a higher shelf as far as the creep factor goes.

  I am going to be sitting here on the edge of my seat, waiting for next season:-)

Nothing Of Note Really.

  Outside of the insanely awesome episode that I watched TWICE, you know what show I'm talking about, not a lot is going on. 

  This is mostly due to the fact that I was sick for a week and now I am sick again. This time is so bad I've had to take antibiotics, the kind that I am clearly not allergic to, due to the fact that I am not covered in hives.

  I have been watching a lot of Sci Show recently. My thirst for knowledge is making its weary way back to the front of my brain and making half hearted calls for attention. So I have been reading my biology E-book and watching Sci Show because it is more entertaining than Khan academy and yes I am that much of an ADHD riddled American, sue me.
  
  I made myself spend money on a nice Wok that came with lid and accessories. It came in the mail the other day and it reminded me of an episode of Legit where the guy ordered jeans online and came to the door for the delivery guy in his boxers, opened the box and put the jeans on before signing for them. Did I laugh at this? Yes. Did I say to myself: I would never go that far? Heck no. 

  I fully admit that America and the internet, more specifically online shopping, have developed a romance that makes Romeo and Juliet look like two dead fish that happen to be making eye contact. And as I continue to live on my own, my American tendencies are only going to get worse I can promise you.

  My bed is too soft. It's killing my back. Ah the hardships we have to endure. Woe is me.

Wait And See.

  I've never been on my own like this before. Not just time on my own, but where I have cut ties with, quite literally, my world as I have known it my whole life. 

  I feel a calm settling over me that is strange and new. 

  It isn't the numbness that always follows the pain, I guess it to be a clearing of the way so I am able to see who I am on the inside. With the cluttering of the ones who needed something to everything from me are suddenly cut off, it has left me with a quiet that I have never experienced before.
  
  For once, I am left to my own devices and there is no one to see but the eyes of the One who knows and understands everything. 

  What shall I do with this time? This freedom? Should I feel joy over this rather than shame and rejection? I feel joy and quiet. I don't waste time on grief and sadness. Though they crop up as they always shall, I will not let it ruin this time I have to myself and Jehovah.

  This is an opportunity I plan on taking full advantage of.

New Girl Is Back!!

  I'm sorry, it's just been a while. I thought the season had wrapped up so I wasn't checking on it for several weeks and now there is an episode buildup. :) Every episode makes me laugh my ass off, I love it!
    
  In other news; I found two things that I want: A Craftsman rolling tool box and a Kitchenaide mixer. 

  Are these things related? Absolutely not. I am getting the Craftsman for $100, which is unheard of! I have been looking for one of these for a good price for a couple years now and my patience has paid off as usual.

 The Kitchenaide is for a good price as well, it's a professional series so I can buy a bunch of fancy attachments later if I want and the price is $40 more than a new basic one at Walmart. 

  Don't know how I would top that. I'm sure I could, but I'm sure I would be 50 when that comes around.

  I digress: I am amazing. That is all.